It was the craziest thing.

Omg Ronnie Radke was in my dream. All I can remember right now is that a few of my friends and I were on this trip or something and it was on an Island and I was standing outside of this little house we were staying at (it was on a dock/ ship port and people were passing by) then Ronnie passes by me and a friend & he’s talking with some guy and walking and he’d dressed like Jack Sparrow and I was like “Ronnie?!?” and then he stopped and took his wig off and had his real hair in a pony tail and most guys can’t work it but mmmmm. That was hot. He was like “walk with me” So I walked down the dock with him and we got to the end of it and there was a wall hiding all of the ships and there was a door way cut through the wall so people could walk through. We stopped and people were walking past us (I think there was a war going on and they had to defend us, oh and while we were walking Ronnie told me about how he became a pirate),and then Ronnie looked at me and I went to go kiss him (because in my dream he was an old love and you could sense the tension between us, and who doesn’t wanna fuck a pirate?) and he turned his head so I just kissed his cheek. So then we hugged and he held me for a long time, and it was a hug with a lot of feeling, so you can definitely sense something is there. He kissed my cheek and then he was getting all geared up and asked if I was going to be alright waiting here for him at the little hut on the port, and I said yeah. He kept holding me and touching me toooo. He said he’d be back at around 3 AM and he’d come lay with me and said hopefully I’d have some energy left for him because he’s gonna be wide awake and is gonna need something to get him tired. (Yes I was going to fuck Ronnie Radke In my dream hnnnnng. He was so fucking sexy) Anyway we were all talking before they left and Ronnie was like ” Isn’t it weird how you fall in love with someone and then you stop talking to them and you talk to them again and it’s like you fall back in love with them? I love it” and I got so happy dude. Apparently he was like a long lost love I could never have and we wanted to fuck but never got to it so we were going to make love once he got back. Then we went back to the hut or whatever cause he forgot something. So he got it and as we were walking back he pushed me up against a wall and started kissing me. Whewwww it was so hot. It’s like the man of your dreams being in love with you and being a complete badass and gentleman and is going out and kicking ass then coming home to you in your cozy soft bed while you’re asleep and he’s 2x bigger than you and he’s warm and manly and makes some passionate fucking love to you. Like bones you and makes love to you at the same time, so you can see how horny I was omfg. Just being in love and making love gets me so hornygcghxg. Anyway. We were done making out and went back to the wall and he kissed me goodbye, and the only people that were left was Nora, some white chick, and stoner Alex. Alex was laying in a hammock and I was laying on the dock and we were just gonna camp out there, so we talked about video games, and Then I woke up and I didn’t get to fuck Ronnie. So disappointing.

I forgot most of it but the first thing I remember was that it was exam time at school and the bell schedule was fucked. I think we had just came out of 6th period and jake took me outside to go see his car because he had just gotten his lisence. It was a red Kia soul and it was pretty cool and he asked me if I wanted a ride and I was like nahhh. His car was on this long gravel path that went out of the school, but there was a huge Indian tent/cabana on the side of the path, so I went to go check it out. The entrance was on the side of it and someone opened the curtains for me and I over heard this black guy talking about the challenge about where you have to have sex everyday for a month. I saw Chris and his friend with concubines and I finally walked in when I saw Chris with his pants down and him in a doggystyle position getting a rimjob while facing me on a little Indian style bed/futon thing. There were Indian drapes everywhere and it was pretty beautiful. Anyway I walked in and sat next to where Chris and the whore were and I grabbed her face and pushed her down, and I took her place and I was like “baby you could have told me you were into this I could try it” and he was like ” go ahead” and I tried but I kept getting giggly and scared and so I went up to lick his balls but he pushed my head back down (he had switched position to lay on his back) and then he was like “c’mon baby just lick it once and see that it’s not that bad” so I tried to but I fell back giggling and he came over and grabbed me and started cuddling me and I asked him why he didn’t ask me to do it before and he grabbed my cheeks and made me do the fish lips thing and was like “your lips are too precious for that baby” and then the whore came back and started hitting on him again and he called her ugly. And then we watched tv and a show was on about deformed cats in the sewer and there was one breed called drunk cats and their eyes were yellow from liver failure and their babies were all fucked up and it was weird. Thee end

Do you feel it, Chris?

So I went to this boy/girl sleepover party. And there were various amounts of people there. My friend from my school (which you dont go to) was there. The house was big, like a mansion. And it was night time. There were a few high-schoolers there, the mother of the house, and lots of little kids. Im assuming that whoever was throwing the sleepover. their little sibling was having one, too. Well eventually I somehow ended up wandering the house by myself, and I opened this random door, and i found this couple hooking up in the room. SO i quickly closed the door and wandered upstairs. In one of the rooms upstairs, !@#$% was sitting in a bed by herself. Just sitting there. I didnt want to seem more awkward than I already was, so i stepped in and said hi. She said hi back, and we started talking. We were talking to much that I found myself sitting on her bed at some point. We were really talking and so comfortable with each other that i actually felt sort of a…weird connection. But after a while !@#$% mentioned a nearby tunnel that she likes to sit in and just let her thoughts wander. So i took interested, and !@#$% and I put on our coats and went out in the night so she could show me this tunnel. We went downstairs heading for the front door, and everyone else was apparently in the basement for some reason. So !@#$% and I didnt have to say anything to anyone about where we were going, so we just left. Outside the house, was a long road, with maybe one or 2 similar huge mansions along it. On the left side of the road was lots of grass, then a small ditch. Past that ditch was more grass, then a cliff which overlooked an ocean. The ocean was this house’s side yard. Accompanied by numerous stars, it was a pretty neat, beautiful sight. Well !@#$% walked toward the ditch, and when we got to that ditch, i saw a small cement tunnel in the ground. The tunnel was about the width of your average house door. You had to crawl in it. So !@#$% said “Dont be scared! Ill show you, follow me!” So she went ahead first. Well I kneeled down and crawled in right behind her. Then tunnel went towards the ocean. About every 6 feet or so, the top part of the tunnel had a cut out top-end to it, exposing it us to the night-sky. Enough moonlight got in those cut-away areas so we could see where we were going. It was a straight tunnel. And right when I got to the last cut-away, I glanced up. I saw billions of stars. It was pretty amazing. Before i could even stare as much as i wanted to, !@#$% said “Sometimes i just look up at the stars and think about everything, and other times…well… i look at this:” and !@#$% sort of scooted over in this narrow tunnel to give me room to crawl up and lay right next to her, we were really close. But she smiled at me and pointed, so i looked out of the end of the tunnel, towards the ocean. And the night-time black ocean, was acting as a mirror and reflecting all the sparkles of the stars. It was like, dead calm. Like puddle water calm, it was being a perfect mirror to the stars. But then !@#$% said, “Often i come here and watch nature. Its peaceful and calming.” Then i agreed and me and her started talking again. My connection to her felt even stronger. It was just her and I talking about everything. But eventually she said “we should probably head back now, i dont want someone to realize that we’ve been gone.” I said “oh shit youre right” and instead of us crawling all the way back to the beginning entrance, I crawled down a little and !@#$% said “watch this!” and she just grabbed the ground outside of the top opening and pulled herself up out of it. I asked her why didnt we just come in that way instead of crawling the whole way, and she said because she likes crawling lol. But we started walking back towards the house. WHen we finally got inside, everyone was still in the basment it seemed. It was really quiet. So me and !@#$% walked towards the kitchen, passing the room with the door closed that the couple was still making love in. She stopped me right as I got in front of the door. She pushed me against it. She stepped close to me, and closer until i could feel her body up against mine. She leaned in with a devilish smirk on her face, and she kissed me. After the kiss she looked at my eyes, glanced at my lips, then kissed me again. This time i kissed back. We kept on kissing. I put my hands on her hips while we were kissing, it was slowly getting more intense so i locked my hands behind her waist. It was weird though because usually something like this would be purely sexual, yet I couldnt get any of her without feeling… emotion involved. Strong emotion that lingers around my being. But anyways, we were kissing (not making out, just kissing) I felt her hand go behind me as if she was reaching to open the door. I moved my hands to her skinny, slender-thin stomach and gently pushed a little and told her how there was a couple in that room. So she made a sad face and said how she wants us to be alone somewhere. Then she said “The tunnel?” with a smile and I replied saying how i thought that would be a great idea. Just as i said that we heard lots of tiny footsteps coming upstairs. The little kids. So we glanced at each other like “Oh shit!” and ran out the door. She ended up laughing about it halfway through the run to the tunnel and i laughed too and stopped and hugged her, then i picked her up and spun her around. Then i gave her a piggyback ride to the runnel and we both crawled in and we went right to the edge and cuddled each other under the stars. I kissed her and she smiled. The last thing i remember is her trying to tell me something… then i woke up.

Its weird how dream can initiate various emotions, but after you wake up and the dream is gone, some of the emotions still linger around for a while…

You know that feeling when you’re having an intense ass dream, and then you  suddenly wake up? During that initial….half second or so, your dreams feels like it was real. 

No matter what you were dreaming about, it feels real for that first half second you wake up. I think that’s pretty amazing. Too bad it doesnt last long though, because real life slaps you in the face very quickly, ending that feeling. 

This morning, I was having a dream that I was looking out my window from my room,  and the clock read 11:59. There was supposed to be a HUGE metor flying across the sky at midnight. Well, it happened. And the whole sky turned green and it looked awesome. It felt surreal though, the whole world glowing bright green at midnight…

Imagine instead of the sun being yellow, shining white light on us, it instead glows a light green and shines a deep alien laser green down into space and down on us. Thats how it looked.

But then i woke up. It was a very sudden transition from dreaming to reality, and that transition fucked with my mind. I think it felt like I was questioning what was reality for about a millisecond. I wondered where I was, and what year it was. Then it hit me that i was dreaming, and i looked up at the clock and it was 4am, i had to get up for school in 3 hours. The dream wasnt even that special, yet for some reason, it was really intense because it felt real. (Im now wondering, what is it that causes some of my dreams to feel more real than others, even though they might not be as intense? Like there are some dreams that i feel really, strongly connected to, even though theyre boring as hell.)

I was kinda sad when that feeling i got was gone. It got me thinking though, I wish there was a way to make that feeling last a lot longer than a mere half second (without the use of drugs)

Im also wondering about this: Our sun is yellow with white light, and it causes sunsets to be yellow/gold/orange/red/pink and sometimes even purple. I wonder that color sunsets would be if the sun was actually green..? Would we have different shades of green dominating the sky? Or green/yellow/turquoise sunsets? Or could a different color sun possibly even change the color of our sky totally? 

I wish i had enough money and resources to conduct all the experiments that I want to lol

WELP. I had a dream and it was quite interesting.

It was blurry, but I remember it starting with Sarah, Wyatt, and I at Ocean city. We were playing around and having fun on the boardwalk, and for some reason, Dylan had moved there. Before I went to Ocean City, I guess I had made plans to go see Dylan. We were going somewhere in our Hotel, and I opened a door and Dylan was there. He had gotten really tall and I almost started crying because of how much I missed him. He gave me a hug and picked me up and he was like, a foot taller than me. He was kissing my cheek a lot and I wanted to kiss him back, so I asked if Sarah had any chapstick (because my lips were chapped, which is odd because they were in real life too) and she said no and yelled at me, so he kept kissing me and we went back to his house or something and he threw me on the bed and he sat down next to me and took out his dick (it looked really deformed when it was soft so I was trying to get it hard lolol) and while I was giving him a handjob Sarah kept trying to distract me so I wouldn’t cheat on Chris, so she finally called me a whore and was yelling at me and I said stuff like “at least I’m not a slut, stop acting like you’re better than me because I clearly am, I can do whatever the hell I want.” and then I sat back down next to Dylan and I was like “I don’t know, maybe I should go.” and he was like “yeah, because my mom just got home” So I snuck out and somehow I ended up in Chris’s house. I took a shower at his house and I was on his bed waiting for him, and I went down to the kitchen and his dad asked if I wanted something to eat and then he gave me this really cool ass looking cake with gummy bears on top with white icing and chocolate cake and gummy worms inside and it was like woah baby. And thennnnnn I went back to lay on Chris’s bed and play some old school game boy games. He never came lol. Then some how I ended up in a video game, and it was somewhat similar to zOMG! on gaia, which is odd lol. We were under the sea and shit.

I dunno. My dream had a lot of trees and was very jungle-esque. Dylan was just sjkfnsjkfn in my dream though. He was so tall and foxy. Fucking love tall guys oh my god.

Our list

  • Go to the Baltimore Aquarium
  • See all the 3D Disney movies
  • Smoke
  • Drink
  • Go for a walk during spring/summer
  • Go to a concert
  • Make love
  • Have sex
  • Have aggressive sex
  • Fuck
  • Cook together
  • Sneak out to see each other
  • Go on a road trip
  • Go to King’s Dominion
  • Wrestle
  • Go swimming
  • Double date
  • Watch the snow fall
  • Watch the sun rise
  • Watch the sun set
  • Wake up together
  • Fall asleep together
  • Go on a date to Olive Garden
  • Go to Chipotle
  • Eat ice cream
  • Give each other massages
  • Take a bath
  • Take a shower
  • Play dead space

Sleep Paralysis is a bitch

I slept in Lindsays living room last night with her and Christian. Next thing i know, my eyes are open and barely able to move around, but i cant move my body. I was stuck in a position and couldnt move at all. I was half awake. But the bad part was i was half dreaming, too. I was looking at their tv when i see small black figures running past the tv. It was almost like i could feel them circling around Lindsay, Christian and I. I kept seeing little black figures (think of the pillsbury dough boy, except all black like a heartless from kingdom hearts) running around me. I kept trying to force my body to move so i could wake up, but i couldnt move my body. Then i concentrated and concentrated all my energy into one random burst and i broke out of my sleep paralysis and woke up screaming and jumping a little. Lindsays dad was right next to me, standing. I looked at the clock and it was 3 something if i remember correctly. He said “The hell was wrong with you?” (he just saw me sleeping then randomly scream myself awake) and i simply said “Bad dream, sorry. You just now getting home?” and he said yeah then asked me who was on the other side of Lindsay, i told him its Christian. He said oh he didnt even know that Christian was coming over. Then i texted Rachel and almost passed right back out. 

Stars (it was night time)

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Not another abandoned city

Mr. Stevens was driving me and a friend of mine somewhere (I still dont know who that person was because i never saw his face, but somehow i knew it was a friend of mine, and i could tell that it was a male). But as we were driving, i saw us pass a city that appeared abandoned. Have you seen I am Legend? the city looked like that. Buildings rotting away, grass growing from the streets. Glass shattered all over the roads, no lights or anything. It looked like the Chernobyl disaster. But next thing i know, Mr.Stevens was pulling over because there was a cop behind us. The cop walked up to the window and they started talking very casually, then they started telling each other weird jokes and shit as if they were friends. Then it turns out, Mr. Stevens planned for this to happen because he was trying to kill me and my friend. The cop pulled out a gun at the same time stevens did, which is what made me realize. After i saw the guns drawn me and my friend sprinted out of his truck and ran. Stevens and the police offer chased us with their guns in hand. What was weird though, was that we were like 10 feet away from entering the abandoned city, which i swear we drove completely past. But anyways me friend passed me and i was following through him. We were running through alleys and turning down random streets. There was rust everywhere, the building were decaying, and there was glass and trash all over the place. There was no parked cars or traffic though, as if every person drove out of the town suddenly. But we made a left down one street still running and passed a red bus. I didnt think much of it but the bus turned on. I yelled “what the fuck, dont you think thats weird?” and my friend suddenly ran super fast and i lost him. i was like “fuck im on my own” and i ran but the bus started chasing me. Im guessing that the bus was another one of steven’s friends. Well i thought “that bus surely cant make a sharp sudden turn” and i swerved left down an alley and hid in a hole under the closest building. The bus pulled up and i thought they didnt see me and assumed that they would keep driving past…but they didnt. They stopped right next to the hole i hid in, and i saw a completely black shadowey figure (think of a heartless from kingdom hearts) walk up to the hole. All i saw was the legs and the feet, until it kneeled down right next to the hole and i got a glimpse of its face. It has a completely black face with glowing yellow eyes that stared at me and scared me and woke me up. 

Well basically I had a dream and the part where I started remembering the dream, I was with Reina and we were walking on this strip of sidewalk. There were like three terraced layers. We were walking on the middle one. The lower layer was the beach, then it gradually made a change to grass and where that slow gradual change was, there was like a bunch of shops and places to eat. Then when the grass was fully there and the sand stopped, there was a side walk. And then if you keep going up there was a light forest. It only had a few skinny trees and the terrain was a bit hilly, but nothing you couldn’t walk on. Also, the sidewalk strip led to the magic kingdom in Disney world. And everyone from school was down at the beach part. So, there’s the setting. It’s kinda hard to imagine, but whatever. Anyway, Reina and I were walking on the sidewalk strip and we start to see it snow. (I was walking with her to go somewhere cause I was bummed cause Chris got a girlfriend and he was hanging out with her)Everyone is flipping the fuck out about the snow and we run down to the beach area. We’re all running and laughing and smiling at the beach. Like it’s snowing at the beach too, but it’s not cold. It just had that nice cool beach breeze, like on a fall day, and the sun wasn’t out either, so it was really nice. The beach was so beautiful too. The waves were crashing and making a noise along with a few seagulls. Anyway, we kept running around and giggling and we met up with Ayisha. We all decided to go to this really cool Asian restaurant and we sat down at a booth and I guess Ayisha already got us appetizers. Everyone from school started to fill the place. I realized I needed money so I tried to run home real quick, but there was no front entrance to the place, you could only enter and exit from the beach. All there was in front was this huge pond, and it had soooo much water and I looked down and there was this MASSIVE black Buddha head and it was crazy how big it was . And there were fountains and moss covered arches and this cool wire design thing that had water trickling down it so at the bottom where it was cut at an angle water sprayed off. These were on the sides of this one big arch and the fanned out a bit so it looked really cool. Anyway, I came back inside then I opened a door and it led to my room. It was my old room that hadn’t been painted and had my old white dresser in it. My wallet was in top of it and I got some money and I was loooaded. so I sat back at the table with Reina and Ayisha and we talked for a minute, then I guess our school called us in for an assembly in this auditorium. It wasn’t the design of ours, it just had our school colors. There was a huge circle stage In the middle made out of wood. And there were bleachers with our colors on them in stuff. So I walked in with my backpack and I found Chris and sat with him and ayisha and a few others. We sat in a circle talking while this presentation was going on. They gave us these catalogs about how we need to be safe drivers and then it had pictures of grotesque images of people dying in an accident and played some audio thing where a doctor is saying ” we need to amputate it” and it was grossssss. Then in the back of my catalog it had porn. Like christmas themed porn lmao. It was stupid. But I think that’s where the dream ends.

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